Like the other day for example, I was sitting in a restaurant by myself waiting to order.
The restaurant was filled with the normal noises one would expect; music, dishes clanging, cell phones ringing, doors opening and closing, but for a moment everything was eerily quiet inside my head.
I looked at my waitress helping another table and I could feel that she didn’t want to be there.
I could sense that she was probably only there because her third of the rent was coming due and she was tired of Taco Bell dinners.
I wondered if she had some better dream or aspiration that was somehow slipping away.
The people she was helping appeared to be a couple.
The man was totally disinterested in what the woman was saying while she spoke loudly and gestured frequently with her hands to tell her stories. I could almost feel her need for attention and I could feel his inability to grant her that wish.
Sometimes I wish that I could wear blinders and not notice all the bull shit surrounding me. Sometimes I wonder why I even care.